my heart is broken

[bebebella]

my bebebella passed away unexpectedly in tragic accident on wednesday, and i am lost without her...she was my best friend. i loved her like my own baby daughter, slept with her next to my heart every night. it has been tough the last couple of days, everything in my house reminds me of her. she wasn't even a year old, i feel like a bad mom, i don't know what to do with myself. she brought me happiness every day, a happiness i wouldn't have known without having her. i will miss her forever...
valerie
bebebella's mom

[citygirl]

I am so sad for you; my heart aches for you and your pup. I hope that time will help to heal the emptiness left by such a wonderful companion as your Bebebella surely was.

Cindy, Maddie & Lexi

[lovemyfrenchy]

I am soooo Sorry to hear of your loss. My heartbreaks for you as well. My prayers are with you .

[Linnysmommy]

I am so sorry to hear about your puppy!

[Martina]

Oh Valerie ... I am at a loss for words. I can't begin to imagine what you're going through - Bebebella was so young. I'm thinking of you ... I hope that you find solace and peace. Wishing you well in this very sad time.

[yomshanti]

Valerie,

My heart goes out to you in this time of grief and sadness. I, too, lost a beloved Frenchie (Walter) due a tragic accident (he choked to death in front of me on a Greenie in December) and I was guilt ridden, blaming myself for what I didn't do, what I could have done, etc. Just hang in there...I promise you, it will get easier. There will always be an empty spot in your heart where your puppy was, but, in time, it will not hurt as much. After Walter died, I bought a huge stuffed Eeyore and curled up next to it every night because, I, too, was used to my Frenchie sleeping next to me.

Just take it one day at a time and above all, be good to yourself and allow yourself time to grieve. You will go through all the stages of grief that you would for a human death...loss is loss.

Anyway, you know all of us on this wonderful site are here for you.

Diane

[piper's~mom]

Hi can't imagine the pain and sadness you are experiencing.
I'm so sorry to hear about the tragic loss of your baby and best friend.

[EllieMae]

Oh, I am so sorry to hear of you loss. You are in our prayers at this time of need.

[luvnkitty]

Oh Valerie, how awful .
I am so sorry for yur loss. Please know we are thinking of you .

[Miss Donna]

I know how heartbreaking it is to loose a little Frenchie Baby so young. Give your self time to heal. In time the pain will lesson, You'll never forget them, but it will get better. During my sadness, I had found a poem , that I have posted on here before, which I have read over and over again. I have it on the wall above my desk. It really helps me when I'm thinking about the loss of my little furry baby. I hope it helps you too. I am re-posting it for you - I hope you dont mind..


I stood by your bed last night, I came to have a peep.
I could see that you were crying, You found it hard to sleep.
I whined to you softly as you brushed away a tear,
"It's me, I havn't left you, I'm well,. I'm fine, I'm here."
I was close to you at breakfast, I watched you pour the tea,
You were thinking of the many times, your hands reached down to me.
I was with you at the shops today, Yours arms were getting sore.
I longed to take your parcels, I wish I could do more
I was with you at my grave today, You tend it with such care
I want to reassure you, that I'm not lying there.
I walked with you towards the house, as you fumbled for your
key.
I gently put my paw on you, I smiled and said "It's me"
You looked so very tired, and sank into a chair,
I tried so hard to let you know, that I was standing there.
It's possible for me, to be so near you everyday.
To say to you with certainty, "I never went away."
You sat there very quietly, then smiled, I think you knew....
in the stillness of that evening, I was very close to you.
The day is over...I smile and watch you yawning,
and say "goodnight, God Bless, I'll see you in the morning"
And when the time is right, for you to cross the brief divide,
I'll rush across to greet you and we'll stand, side by side.
I have so many things to show you, there is so much for you
to see, Be patient, live your journey out......
then come home to be with me.
Author unknown.

[bulldoggin30]

Valerie, I got tears in my eyes when I read your post because I can only imagine how painful it must be to lose your baby. Then I read miss Donna's poem and had more tears! My thoughts are with you.

[bebebella]

i just want to thank everyone for your kind words, i have just been beside myself lately...that lovely poem makes me feel that she is still here with me somewhere licking my tears. it is so comforting to know that others can relate to what i feel, i dont feel as alone. i do have another puppy, a bullmastiff her name is Ishtar, she is about two months younger than bella, and i have been just loving her and she is also helping me heal. but i think letting time go by will be the only way to lessen the pain...i will cherish her forever, everything i do, or everyone i go, i think of what she would be would be doing with me...thank you all again
valerie